Thursday, November 20, 2008

Once Upon A Dream

While getting ready for Preslie's arrival we went through about 6 mobiles. We bought a crib that has really thick sides, and every mobile that we thought would work...didn't. We finally found one that would do. It is pink and girlie and reflects on the ceiling a baby sleeping in the clouds, with a moon and stars. It plays the typical babyish songs, and for months every night Chris and I would go in there. We would turn on the mobile and envision what it would be like when Preslie came. We would only play it for a few songs, then turn it off and go to sleep.

A few weeks ago while laying on the floor in her room listening to the mobile, I heard one of the final songs on it. Chris and I are huge Disney fans as a bunch of you know, and the song "Once Upon A Dream" is on there. I found myself thinking of the lyrics as it played and realized that I would never think of the lyrics the same again.

"I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream
I know you, the gleam in your eyes is so familiar a-gleam
Yet I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you do,
You'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream

But if I know you, I know what you do,
You love me at once,

The way you did once upon a dream"

I often go into Preslie's room and listen to this song, and think how great it will be when I see my baby girl again.

Before delivering Preslie the nurses gave me a few sleeping aids, because they thought it was going to be awhile before I had to push. A few short hours later It was time, and unfortunately I do not remember a lot of what happened after Preslie came out. I feel like it was all a dream, and I am just going to wake up and everything is going to be okay. I know that one day my dream will come true, and Preslie and I will be reunited. I loved her at once and will continue to love her forever.


Janey Johnson said...

Rylie, this is absolutely poetic. I am so grateful to know you and to feel your strength though all of this. Our prayers are still with you!

J&E said...

I love that song too. As a little girl I use to spin around in my dress while I watched sleeping beauty and sing along to it. A little while ago we found a cassette tape where my mom recorded me singing a few songs and this was one of them and at one point I sing "that glee in yow eyes is so familiar ugly". We had a good laugh over that. I love the ways in which you are surviving this experience. Please know how much your strength strengthens all of us.
Lots of Love and Prayers

Sami and Mark said...

Rylie, you have such a beautiful spirit. Whenever I read your posts I always feel it. How perfect that song is for your little sleeping beauty. You are amazingly strong. Our prayers are still with you and your family. Take care

Anonymous said...

Rylie & Preslie-

You are both my Sleeping Beauties! Every morning when I wake up I see her in you. You gals both have the same face and I too cannot wait until we get to hold our little Princess again.

Love your Prince!!!

Deb and Stan said...

Dear, dear Rylie,

I know you are suffering, but I am so impressed by your strength and your faith in our Father in Heaven. Please know that you and Chris are in our prayers.

Jenny and Kelsey said...

Wow.....that's so neat that you had that experience Ry. Thanks for continuing to share all of these things on your blog. I love hearing about how you're doing and the things that are going on!! The funny thing is we all loved her "once upon a dream." Who knew that so many people could love this little person that we have never met and yet...we do! Stay strong Ry and call me if you need anything! We love you and Chris!!

curtandjuliemartin said...

Rylie and Chris we love you! Chris you always say the sweetest things to Rylie. There is so much goodness inside of you both and we love to see it in everything you do. We love you and are always thinking of you!

McGinnis Family said...

Rylie, you are an amazing woman! I'm so proud of you for your outlook on this experience! You are so strong and have a strong testimony, which will carry you through. I love you and hope you know that! I often wonder and think that maybe our little girls are playing up in heaven together! They're keeping each other company!

Bobby and M!kell said...

rylie, you are so brave to post all of your personal thoughts and feelings. you have great strength. that song will always have a different meaning to me now.

Aubreydoll said...

Thank you so much for sharing that, what a beautiful way to think about that song. You really do have such a strong testimony and amaze me every time I see you!

Anonymous said...

I hope your Dad e-mailed you the poem i wrote for you and Chris. I hope some how it can bring you peace. I find myself thinking about your strength everyday. Your words touch my heart and soul as your powerful words melt into our hearts. Your faith in knowing that one day you will be together as a family and share your love. I cannot say I know how you feel, I can only say we are here for you and love you. My family thinks of you and we wish we could ease your pain. This little angel touched so many hearts and left her mark on us all. I keep you in my prayers everyday. May your days be filled with peace. Love Aunt Kari