Thursday, October 15, 2009
Infant Loss and Remembrance Day
I woke up today trying not to think about what day it is. Not only is it Infant Loss and Remembrance Day, it is my Due date that I had with Preslie last year. The past few days I have not been able to stop thinking about that day. I couldn't sleep the entire night before, because I was just so excited that I finally made it to my due date. I had a huge playgroup that day with yummy taco salads, and I told the girls to not expect me the following week during the Halloween play group, because I was going to have this baby!
I knew I put a post up today last year, and I tried all day to not think or look at it. Of course I couldn't help but look at it. Ugh, I just feel so sick to my stomach. It scares me to think where I will be this time next year. Will my dream of being a Mom on earth come true? Will I have all angel children? Will I have a beautiful baby girl on my lap to hold and take care of?
I am so grateful for the knowledge that I will be able to see Preslie again, and raise her in a better place. I just wish the time didn't seem so far away. I want to be able to hold her, and plan a huge birthday party a week from today. My heart is full, and my mind is in the past.
Please remember the lost babies today. They are not too far away, and we will remember them. If you can light a candle at 7pm to remember all the little angels, there will be many flames to honor them.
Posted by Rylie at 2:37 PM