Sunday, March 22, 2009

5 Months


5 months down, a LIFETIME to go before we will get to hold our sweet angel again.

I wish I could say that it get's easier, and that the pain and sadness disappears. Such is not the case for us. The sadness and pain is always there, it just gets locked away sometimes.

We will never be who we once were, we have to live and endure in who we have become.

11 comments:

J&E said...

*hug*hug*hug*

Courtney and Jason said...

I know. I really do.
*hugs my friend*

Love u!

Jenny and Kelsey, together forever! said...

It will get easier Ry! Just keep taking it one day at a time. :)

Deb and Stan said...

You are so right...you will NEVER be the same people that you once were. You can't be. You are stronger. You are more faithful. You are more attune to the Spirit. You are more compassionate and loving. You appreciate each other more. And you have so much to give to others around you. I just love you for that!

Dan and Sheila said...

I am truly sorry. I hate that this has happened to you. I would never wish the hurt that we have gone through, on any one. I truly look up to you, your strength, your faithfulness, and you spirit. I know that Preslie is proud of her parents. I just wanted to let you know that we are thinking of you and you are in our prayers, Love Sheila!

Stephanie said...

I'm so sorry. I don't know what else to say because I can never understand the grief you are feeling. I hope you feel your sweet baby close to you today.

Aubreydoll said...

We love you guys so much and hate that you have to go through this pain. Thank you for showing me the book that you have of Preslie, it was a privilege to see your beautiful daughter!

Brittanie said...

While it's true that you are forever a changed person, and that it never really goes away, I promise it WILL get easier. The good days become more frequent, and the bad ones rarer and further apart. One day down the road you'll look back and realize that the hurt and pain have gradually faded.


But that first year is so very hard.

((hugs)) to you.

Jason and Ashley said...

Rylie your strength amazes me, literally!! I pray for Heavenly Father to bring you and Chris peace and comfort! Please know that Jason and I love you!!

DaViD + KaTie + aLeXiS said...

Hi, Rylie- I don't know if you've seen this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVNYhcYEwIE

It's Elder Wirthlin's talk, "Come What May & Love It" set to music. Anyways, that was my favorite talk from General Conference & I've thought it often since then. When I stumbled across this video the other day, it reminded me of your post about his talk. Just thought you might like to see it. Hang in there- if there's anything we can do, let us know!

Michelle said...

I know I don't have all the answers, but I do have this...opened up several days ago and knew it was meant for you...
Hope is not knowledge, but rather the abiding trust that the Lord will fulfill His promise to us. It is confidence that if we live according to God's laws and the words of His prophets now, we will receive desired blessings in the future. It is believing and expecting that our prayers will be answered. It is manifest in confidence, optimism, enthusiasm, and patient perseverance."In the language of the gospel, this hope is sure, unwavering, and active. The prophets of old speak of a 'firm hope' (Alma 34:41) and a 'lively hope' (1 Peter 1:3). It is a hope glorifying God through good works. With hope comes joy and happiness. With hope, we can 'have patience, and bear . . . [our] afflictions' (Alma 34:41)."
Dieter F. Uchtdorf
You may never stop grieving, asking questions, wondering about why and the what-if's, but as long as you don't loose the hope, the focus on not only tomorrow but the eternities with her, you will be moving forward. Both you and Chris have work left to do here as Preslie is working hard on the other side for your family, so hope my friend...hope one day your heart will understand, hope that in the midst of the pain and sorrow you feel peace, a sense of love from your Father in Heaven...just never let go of HOPE!!
All my love to you both!