Wednesday, July 22, 2009
It is hard to imagine that it has been 9 months since I held you in my arms. I remember staring down at you and thinking how beautiful you were. I have noticed with time that I do not think of all the pain and sadness all the time, although I do have moments especially lately. I can't help but feel envious of all the parents who have the opportunity to raise their children on earth. The question of why I have to wait will someday be answered. Usually the 21rst is so hard for me, but I decided to keep myself really busy. I went to WIC today and sat in the same seat with Arista that I did with you. It was difficult to explain why you were not there with me, and how difficult it has been. I miss you everyday Preslie, but everyday that goes by brings me closer to you. I often wonder how often you look in on us, and miss being with us. I know that you are doing a great work on the other side but my heart still aches for you to be here with me. I was talking to your daddy the other night and could not believe that you would be almost a year old. I got so sad to think that despite my sorrow, life still moves forward.
I can tell already that your sister Arista has a lot of your same personality traits. There have been so many times where your daddy and I call her "P", and then we realize that she is not. I know that you and your sister are close, I can feel it. I received a tender mercy last week that showed me that you too will be bonded forever. She will know everything about you, and strive to be as celestial and perfect as you are.
I wanted to write down a list of some of my favorite memories shared with you...
1. The first time I felt you kick
2. Reading to you
3. Playing music for you
4. Your daddy talking to you
5. When I dropped a pan and you jumped
6. Staying up late with you
7. Watching your little bum move
8. Feeling your hiccups
9. Seeing your beautiful face
10. Holding you
Preslie we love you so much. We pray for you every night, and hope that you are happy. We can't wait for the day where we can meet you, and see your beautiful blue eyes, and see you smile. We will never forget you.
I love you my Baby "P".
Posted by Rylie at 5:42 PM