Thursday, February 19, 2009
Reflection on the Happiest Day of My Life
A year ago today was the happiest day of my life. I had a really bad cold, and felt like I shouldn't take any medicine since my period was late. Chris went to the store and bought a bunch of meds as well as a pregnancy test. He wrote me a little sticky note wishing me luck. I remember being so scared to take the test, but I was so sick I had to know. When the test turned out positive I could not even breathe. I felt a huge rush of emotion, and I just started sobbing. It felt like God had put his arms around me, and had given me a huge hug. I called my mom and told her all about it, and then decided to decorate the house for Chris.
Chris called me on a break at school and I could not hold back the excitement. He knew instantly when he heard my voice. He came home and we called all of our family members. We were so excited! We starting thinking of all the great things our baby would be doing someday, and how blessed we felt to be able to have such a great child.
My heart just aches today. I never in my wildest dreams thought that a year from that day I would be sitting here with empty arms, and a broken heart. I found myself thinking back to that day a lot this past week, wishing I could go back and relive that moment. Oh what I would do to have Preslie here with me. I would just hold her and never let her go. Today is such a hard day, I just want my baby girl!
Posted by Rylie at 1:06 AM